I go ghost for a few months and somehow have new followers.. Hope you guys stick around for when the fun (utter insanity) starts back up again XP once I get back to school I’m sure the procrastination will lead me back home!

For now though.. One more week of working with teens with serious respect issues and then a week filled to the brim with packing and other adventures!


*doesn’t check bank account*
*pretends everything is fine*

I can talk about everything without batting an eyelash.. What they both did and how much it hurt.. I can mention one or the other in conversation and barely feel anything.. But as soon as I see a picture.. A reminder of them while I’m not prepared.. When I’m weak and unguarded.. It hits home.. Every. Time. Friends are done hearing about it.. My boyfriend hates it if I bring it up.. I turn inward and I feel nothing but jagged edges that I don’t have the courage to fix.. So I cover it all with a blanket, dust off my hands, and turn away.. I don’t want to be that scared, broken little girl.. I don’t want to give them the satisfaction of it.. But the truth of the matter is that what happened will never let me go.. I can grow around it.. But there will always be a lump.. A hard spot.. I feel so guilty for talking about it all again and again.. It’s not anyone else’s burden to bear.. The reality is that it’s not that big of a deal.. Just a speed bump that for some reason I react terribly to..

I don’t actually have all my thoughts in a line right now.. I’m rather stressed out and have no other outlet at this moment.. I’m moving forward.. And trying not to look back..


The brown bear humerus, so awesomely donated by Ben Garrod, arrived this morning! Thought I’d do a study of it before I paint it


South Dakota-based artist John Lopez (previously featured here) creates awesome life-size sculptures of animals by welding together pieces of scrap metal, often pieces of abandoned farm machinery collected from local ranchers and farmers that he’s known since he was a kid. The creatures he creates are so lifelike that it’s hard to believe their myriad parts and pieces were ever used for anything else.

Visit John Lopez’s website, blog and Facebook page to check out more of his magnificent metalwork.

[via Twisted Sifter and Dailymail.co.uk]